I’m in Level 1 voice class for the second time and still working on the same thing, which is to say power and volume (these are related, but not exactly the same thing). 15 years of trying to not be heard over the radio has taken its toll, and without realizing it I had lost the ability to sing any louder than that. We are all working on the same thing, but this is the second class now where I have struggled with it more than anyone else has.

Singing loudly would be hard for me under any circumstances, but what’s worse is that we’re supposed to be unmusical – if you feel like you’re yelling out the song, you’re doing the exercise correctly. So I have to both be loud *and* sound like crap. And then stand up and deliver this masterpiece to the class. This is really, really hard for me to do.

I picked a new song for my second time through, and I really searched for one that felt like it should be belted out as loud as possible. I sang it at class for the first time last week, and found it interesting that people said that even though I *still* wasn’t loud enough, they felt like I really have a connection to the song. They are right; there are two important relationships in my life which have had elements in common with this song at different times. It doesn’t fully match either one of them, but the emotion the song invokes is spot-on, and some of the specifics are right as well.

I’m not going to explain any more than that, so as to not embarrass anyone else (I’m beyond worrying about it :) but I am going to post the lyrics to the song after the jump, as much for posterity as anything. Without knowing who, when and why, it probably won’t mean much to the rest of you.

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